to be truth i had ever thought i am smarter than others before..
i admit sometimes i love to show-off and being smarter,
with wrong intention from heart..
i love attention,
i love to be praised,
i love to be admired,
but i realized i don't have to show-off myself by now..
i'm begging a pardon for my forgetfulness..
i'm still lacking of lots of things..
i dont want to blame up my destiny as what has predetermined for me..
every things happen should has reason for it..
i had ever gone through a real sadness and frustration previously..
that time i was like a damn real loser,
till i lost, till i'm no longer recognize who i am..
that was first time in my life, i had failed to get what i want..
i never miss anything i want before,
i got everythings!
nahh!till GOD had testing me once but i couldn't face it..
too bad, too late to regret..
from kids, i want to be a doctor- i mean medical doctor..
i study harder, pray evermore..
i got straight a's, 4.0..
but the time ALLAH decide not to give, he wouldl just take it away..
till the time i got offer from university,
i was glad to know i would be UM student..
but after i was informed i would undertake dentistry course,
i was burst into tears, i don't believe i couldn't undertake medicine..
then i know by now,
i was predetermined not to have something that i couldn't bear with..
i realized sometimes GOD give us something that we hate a lot,
but that is the best thing after all..who knows?
then when i already prepared to face the real thing,
there were some little voices to set me down again!
oh!how sarcastic they are!
" u got 4.o,why u can't undertake medic? "
" why u don't get offer at least from Indonesia medical school? " <-- oh please!
" what for u study harder but end up with dentistry? "
omg!only GOD knows how i feel when people set me down again and again..
since that time, i just being another person..
loser, show-off, which is not me exactly..
and now, i realize there's too much things still i do not know yet,
which i have to learn by now..
i don't need to be showing-off again since i am nobody..
still and all, too much things i dont know about blogging..
if i miss anything, did wrong things,
not fulfill your expectation,
not follow up your blog asap,
not joining your contest,
please forgive me for my ignorance..
i admit sometimes i love to show-off and being smarter,
with wrong intention from heart..
i love attention,
i love to be praised,
i love to be admired,
but i realized i don't have to show-off myself by now..
i'm begging a pardon for my forgetfulness..
i'm still lacking of lots of things..
i dont want to blame up my destiny as what has predetermined for me..
every things happen should has reason for it..
i had ever gone through a real sadness and frustration previously..
that time i was like a damn real loser,
till i lost, till i'm no longer recognize who i am..
that was first time in my life, i had failed to get what i want..
i never miss anything i want before,
i got everythings!
nahh!till GOD had testing me once but i couldn't face it..
too bad, too late to regret..
from kids, i want to be a doctor- i mean medical doctor..
i study harder, pray evermore..
i got straight a's, 4.0..
but the time ALLAH decide not to give, he wouldl just take it away..
till the time i got offer from university,
i was glad to know i would be UM student..
but after i was informed i would undertake dentistry course,
i was burst into tears, i don't believe i couldn't undertake medicine..
then i know by now,
i was predetermined not to have something that i couldn't bear with..
i realized sometimes GOD give us something that we hate a lot,
but that is the best thing after all..who knows?
then when i already prepared to face the real thing,
there were some little voices to set me down again!
oh!how sarcastic they are!
" u got 4.o,why u can't undertake medic? "
" why u don't get offer at least from Indonesia medical school? " <-- oh please!
" what for u study harder but end up with dentistry? "
omg!only GOD knows how i feel when people set me down again and again..
since that time, i just being another person..
loser, show-off, which is not me exactly..
and now, i realize there's too much things still i do not know yet,
which i have to learn by now..
i don't need to be showing-off again since i am nobody..
still and all, too much things i dont know about blogging..
if i miss anything, did wrong things,
not fulfill your expectation,
not follow up your blog asap,
not joining your contest,
please forgive me for my ignorance..